She catches her eyes surveying the room for a spot to loop a belt around. She catches her mind wondering the extent of the ripple effects if such action is seen through completion. At a minimum, everybody in the unit would hear the news however distant and irrelevant she may be to each individual. There will probably be a stand down, this thought especially makes her chuckle a little bit. Then there will be some people who will really take it to heart. Perhaps they will feel responsible and live with unreasonable guilt for a period of time. This halts her thought process. It is not something she wishes to happen. The real motivation to discard the idea altogether is, let's see, she counts with her fingers, the well being of four people in Germany, and of course friends and family stateside and back home.

He will probably turn his phone on as soon as the airplane lands in Frankfurt next week. He will be both amused and perhaps annoyed at the amount of Facebook messages she has been sending him during his absence. And then, in this hypothetical situation, he would somehow hear the news or notice the flood of posts on his newsfeed and pursue an answer to his nervous inquiry. She does not and will not speculate how much she means to him, but without a doubt, he will be heavily affected. His potential misery is reason enough for her to stop entertaining the idea.

Of course, the whole thing is never a real option. She knows all to well.